Admit it.
We are all the same.

We want others to understand us, FULLY. But we just don't get them, AT ALL.
In a selfish world we are all living in.

Same goes to sacrifices.
We could only see what we sacrifice for others. But we are just too blind to see (or even feel with an opened-heart) what others had done to us most of the time.

"You're the only one who really knew me at all."

I hope I know what am I doing.
Unpredictable as always.

We don't want more downs than ups. But that's life. You can't always have ups with you. You can always have downs. So let it be.
Stop with the 'Could've'. I have put so much effort. And if things don't go on it's way, it just won't. I'm not gonna waste my time anymore.

There's no such thing as Karma at the time being. What I've been through (currently) is what I've always wanted, and even if it's not what I've always wanted, at least I know how is it like to be at somebody's place.

Lessons are just so important.
Aha. Life, Sayang. Life.

Goodnight
xx

I lost my words. Words won't be enough after all.

Baby home.

More-than-10-days-off.
Study, Azalia. STUDY!

The Final Week

Can I just die now?

Trust needs to be earned.
And I don't know who I can put my trust on anymore.
The only person that I can really really really rely on is Mama.

What else do disappointment and failure offer? I don't say I am gonna accept the offers. I'd do what it takes to run from the offers.

BUT I failed, fall to pieces..

Few more weeks to go. And behind all these depressing-days I'm facing, all I was (am) doing are mostly stupid things.

I keep on letting people down.

Sebak.

The only reason I could be so emo is the time. The time that I can never have. The time that will never want to come and knock on the door of my life when I need it the most. The time that will come when I don't want it anymore.

Expecting too much will never help. Putting hopes at the highest will never help too.

The time will always be jealous.
And please, this time, let me keep up with everything.

xx

You already have the best.

Four weeks left. Finals is haunting me. Yeay zzz.

I thought this weekend won't be much fascinating like I always had.. But miracles do happen. And I couldn't be happier. Love this feeling I have. But feelings can fade, and I hope this time it won't.

"The advise you gave, is what you have to do too. That is how people are going to look up to you."

Running out of words.
xx

"We can make it through together. Distance is just a number." -Mal

I tried, you know, to be much more understanding. I am still trying.

Tahan sebak. Sakit.
I thought I can do this. I thought by staying here over the weekend can make me stronger. I need to learn, my dear. We both need to. Yes, I know if possible, there's no way we want to learn how to stay away. But that time will come. I'm giving myself a week plus to get ready for the worst. But 'the worst' will happen for a year.

I cried myself to bed. Dah lama tak cakap macam ni. But this time the reason is different, obviously.
How could I pretend to feel so calm? How could I stay away from my comfort-zone, when there's a chance to be in the comfort-zone?

But I have promised myself a good weekend. I hope this time, staying away from home is worth it.

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"A crucial week is coming."
-Madam Mimi

- BEL Comprehension and Writing Test.
- BEL Listening Test.
- BEL Speaking Test.
- CTU Test.
- MGT Quiz 2.

After going through all this, I'm gonna have three days off. Melaka tak ambil Cuti Sempena Thaipusam. I izz so sad!

xx

I am more to a thinker. Not really a talker.

Some things just don't make sense. Will never make any fucking sense.

Hello babies! :)
The Statistics Class this evening is cancelled and I can't be happier right here right now. Currently chillin' out with Nani and Ainul. Ad and Auni macam biasa decided to go home while me, I'm trying so hard to be stronger than ever. I'm gonna stay here for the weekend, might going out with Laila her cousin tomorrow. So yeahh.. Can you hear I'm to that way, to adapt with my surrounding? Heh.

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"Girls. They can either fall for the look, or the words thrown by guys."
-Mal (Midnight Phone Call, Jan. 27th 2012)

"I try to give you what you want, because I know you never had the chance to get what you always wanted for the whole last-year."
-Mal (Midnight Phone Call, Jan. 27th 2012)

There's this one night, he told me he'd rather see me crying, than see me feeling nothing at all. And now only I have the relevant idea why Lady Antebellum brought in the 'Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all' line into their first single.
Well yeah, at least if I tend to cry, it means I tend to care.

What I have with me now is enough. Enough to make me put the smile back on.

Like what All Time Low said, "Maybe it's not my weekend. But it's gonna be my year". And I will always keep that in mind. It's my year. Or maybe the following years also would be mine.

Words will never be enough. Wish I could type down more about my thoughts. But I guess this is not the right time. I need my nap time.

Tooooooooooooooooodles!

It's not a conflict. It's not even a phenomena. But people like you make it sound like one.

Don't keep it. Let it all out. You might get hurt and another is the victim.
Don't let the another hold the grudge. Your life isn't wasted yet.

Glitters Glitters Glitters.
I keep on repeating this.

A year turned out to be A day. But I don't care. Everything is unpredictable.

Morning sweethearts.
Didn't have a good sleep last night. Woke up every hour.. for nothing. My own bed is forever-comfy, but I think it was my mind that makes me losing my strength last night.
Aha no. I wasn't thinking about the shits I've through. No no, not again. I'm tired of doing that this whole time. I was just thinking of my life, what am I gonna be, what have I done to my life 'til I could see myself will always be at the bottom part.
Those who know me so well will always understand me. I am that kind of person who thinks at the worst, but fail to prepare for the worst (at times je lahh kan.. kot ehee).

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I am back to the old days, where I feel close to somebody, very very close indeed. Oh no wait SCRATCH THAT! I am getting attached to somebody, too attached, indeed. Haa that would be the suitable words. Much more describable.
And I just don't know how to put it all into words. What and How I feel, how is it going, everything.. I just can't put it into words.. for now..

Frankly, I am way too scared this time.

I.. better get my work done by now.